I am a selfish person.

since last thursday, him and I have been spending too much time together. I swear we see each other every night.Even if I am tired from working at 8 am until 7pm, baking multiple number if cakes as soon as I reach home, I am willing to see him. 

It is safe for me to say that I really like this man. i REALLY DO. 

But this mornig he told me he's going back soon in 2 days time. I know I have no right to make him stay and he cant do anything about it too. I like him, we're not in a relationship because I TOLD HIM I do not want to be in one, WE DO things like any other couples do, I want him to satisfy me first then I'll satisfy him, I say mean things to him, I told him bad things about me. 

I am a sselfish lover who guilt-trip him just so that he will stay. I hate myself.