A bitter day....

I'm back.. Here is the real deal...

I'm still crying over him. My heart still hurts, my body still burns whenever I see his name and I still don't have the strength to face him. No, not him. Reality. I don't know what to say anymore. Ever since Taufiq flew to Italy, my life is so quiet. There was no one, no buddy, no kid with me to fight or quarrel over little things. There's no one I can share pictures of the food I eat daily. I am back inside the dark box. This time I can't see any light because I willingly, wholeheartedly blindfolded my eyes from the world. The world is so beautiful but I don't belong there if I have no one to fight for, no reason to fight and no motivation to go on.

Maybe I'll just stay here and be nothing for myself.

Kimini Todoke

Hello~~~~~~~ It's almost the end of the Ramadhan. I managed to complete some of my goals. Oh hell.!!! urgghhh~~!! That's all........... Thank you.... Wait, No........ I have something to vent. Here goes~~~~

It has been almost a month! It feels so unproductive.!!! Everything seems so unproductive.!! I'm still stuck where I am standing now. And I don't know where the fuck am I standing... The thing that pissed me off the most is HE WAS RIGHT. I AM THE ONLY PERSON TO BE BLAME. OK, FUCK IT. I should change.

Goodnight. I'll be back with something meaningful.